he called it tough love...

it began innocently and purely,
with the lending of my hand
soon over time, it became
every whim of his...
my heart was at your command.

word by word
day by day
you drew me in
his words wrapped around me
as i let the wall around my heart fall
oblivious to it all.

every hug
every sweet word
who knew
that all along
you just needed me for you
and not for us …

every word
every song
every inspiration reminds me of you
how do you expect me to forgive and forget?
pardon me as i wait with baited breath
for your answer.

he and i had become one, whether he would believe it or not
and for all the pain you have caused me,
undoubtedly, an answer is justifiably sought

as the saying goes forget regret and life is yours to miss
such things are only mentioned to
you appeared to me as genuine
and so i let myself go
who knew that every breath every song every word every being would taunt me
… little did i know.

such pain has only happened once before, and the scars still remain
i never understood that we would be part of this destruction,
that we would lose everything i was so lucky to gain.

the heart beats, but all i hear is your name ...
it once used to bring a smile to my face,
but now reminds of an illusion, deception and pain

your voice holds this power over me
his eyes still look deep within my soul
memories repeatedly sear the mind’s shore
to forgive and forget it all…my goal.

call me emotionally fragile
fabricate lies
to hide the truth
warm hugs no longer embrace me…
of being so attached to you ... i see no fruit.

if fate leads me to you, dear
then let it be so
but until that encounter, my love
i must let him go.


<3