hmm...

explain to me why i rarely stress about anything that matters. well ... generally speaking.

finals, grades, papers, midterms ... just don't scare me as much anymore.
sometimes this uncaring attitude concerns me. such conflicts should affect me ... maybe, just maybe, the worst is yet to come.

positive thinking, yes? scoff. just one of the changes to come, beb ...
but really...things can be worse. unfortunately [or fortunately?]... much, much worse.

funny how much you've changed me. you probably don't even know it. but i pride myself on the fact that i'm using this to change myself for the better. i've learned. and i've let go. i'm approaching life in a whole new manner - maybe this is what i needed. to rid myself of my intense point of view, and add different spices to life. ever the poli sci major - put a spin on life. a positive spin. exude that warmth from within; smiles are free.

i love it. i'm living life on my terms. maybe, on some level, that's what you wanted me to do. but i'm not looking back. certain experiences don't leave that horrible aftertaste anymore...i refuse to let it.

all this only affirms reality. but the reality is ... i'm happy. i really am. i've learned what i have needed to...so far. i'm ready to move on. establish myself. no doubt it's difficult to leave the past behind but rely on yourself to make your dreams come true. step forward with a sense of determination and dedication to your pursuit, and hold no regrets. the best is yet to come.

maybe i don't stress anymore because i know what goes around comes around. maybe it's because i know i've followed my heart, and i've done my best. maybe it's fate. maybe, just maybe, i am where i'm meant to be - right here, right now - living, loving, laughing ... and learning.

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