stop trying!

you cant overcome failures is something else and you cant accept failure is something else.

yes you should never accept that you have failed.

but what is is.

so what to do? explore and take a dip one more time.

but in a new way.

in a different perspective.

dont go the same way. dont repeat.

then every failure is a learning. and your expense becomes your investment. from trying you shift to researching.

from mere imitation and assembly it shifts to authenticity.

every learning enhances and opens up a further learning and finally you learn. that is success.

so stop trying again and again and start learning. success is for the one who learns not for the ones who does.

when you fail it doesnt mean it cant happen it only means right now it has not happened in the way you went about making it happen.

so explore the way and not alter the target or dishearten yourself.

edit 2.13.10
you know what i realized? this is what's been happening with everything. "let's try to start studying for the gre today." "let's try to start this raw food diet and exercise today." "let's try to be a different person starting today." "let's try to be better than i was before." "let's try to apply to more jobs than i've ever applied to so i can find something soon." try. but it hasn't worked. you know why? trying leaves room for failure. it does. no matter what you say.
sure, sanjay ji sends out these emails, and it might sound ideal, it might sound like something i don't usually do, it might sound
harsh, but this is exactly what you've been telling me. i just didn't understand you until today.
thank you for being there. thank you for opening my eyes. and thank you, more than anything, for dealing with
me when i was so stubborn, immature, indecisive and condescending.
god must really love me to have blessed me with you, v.a.d. i love you.



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