fairy dust...

so my counselor told me that it was mandatory in her sessions to ask her favorite question.

if i took counseling to be the end all to all my problems ... and if she could take fairy dust, and sprinkle it over me as i slept, so that i woke up in the morning and had my perfect life, what would it be like? what would your perfect day be like? your schedule? your perfect food? what would you look like? what would you feel like? who would be the perfect person you wake up with (if that)? what music? who are you with?
wow. so many questions. and sure, life doesn't work that way :) but let's dream :)

i think i’d live by the beach. you know, where you can wake up to the smell of the ocean, and the crashing of waves on the beach, while the birds chirp on the coconut trees that billow in the wind … the sun would pour through the open balcony, into the room, where i’d wake up. i’d wake up next to someone that genuinely and honestly cares about me. respects me for a who i am, has a sense of humor, but knows how to handle me at my worst, and how to make me happy. who communicates problems, who loves me for who i am, who helps me around the house, who plain and simple – loves me. after waking up, i would go for a run alongside the beach, taking in the beautiful scenery and breathing in the fresh air. after coming back, i’d give my parents a quick call hello in the morning, make breakfast - a perfect balance of healthy and comfort foods. orange juice, yogurt, and a muffin  after that, i’d do the daily morning routine, but i know for sure that i would be at least 10 pounds lighter than i am, and that i’d be much happier with myself since i’ve found someone that genuinely cares about me an dlikes me for who i am, but i’d also be happy that i’m happy with who i am and how i look, more so than i am now. i would put my business attire on – and drive to work listening to calming music – whether it be indian music or classical music. i see myself either working in international relations or in human resource management, where i could help people through conflict mediation, on in general areas. at work, i see myself busy with things i love to do, and see myself eating lunch with people i haven’t seen in a while – try to keep in touch with old friends, while making new ones. i see myself having adopted children sometime after spending a few good years with my partner. after coming home, i see myself drinking juice, watching oprah or ellen, or the sunset, and taking some me time before my partner comes home. checking email, and keeping in touch with people that i wish to see often, or even with my cousins, and sibling. i honestly feel that having that strong base of family connections has helped me thus far in my life, and has stabilized my life as well as my thinking. after all of that, i see myself as learning to cook, and making dinner (by myself or with my partner), and watching the news, or watching a movie, or a documentary in the evening. go out for a walk on the beach before bed time, and then thank God for everything that he has blessed me with, shut my eyes, and dream the night away =)


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