deep, dark secrets ... =)

most people take everything at first glance, materialistic, and don’t bother to look at your soul to see what kind of person you are. i admit, i used to be that person – but other than the occasional “oh my god that guy is so freakin hot” moments – i try my best to look past the physical appearance and mask that people usually wear. there are quite a few things people don’t know about me, and i’m not just talking about myself here, but it is rare that people take time to get to know the real interests, real passions, real concerns about someone…something i never share about myself … i’m afraid of doing the right thing. sometimes being too ideal or following your goals and aims in life too strictly aren’t too good for you. i put myself 150% into all my relationships – getting to know other people, hearing about their complaints, giving advice, and just talking…but sometimes i feel that even though it’s never about giving and getting, some reciprocation is necessary. i feel like i don’t receive the same amount of attention or correspondence that i give to people. but i’ve learned to deal :) as long as i make someone happy, and as long as i make a difference by supporting and talking to a friend, that is all that matters to me. other than the general – loving my family, absolutely enjoying times with friends, and with my clubs and at work, i just love having fun. i love separating work and school, knowing how to take some me time, and i’m getting better at learning how to balance my commitments in life so far, and not forgetting to keep in touch with my friends here at uci and elsewhere, and family in san diego, and in india especially. which brings me to another topic… india. sure, it’s a third-world country, sure it’s overpopulated and the people aren’t too rich – but as soon as i arrive in india, everything my world seems to fall into place correctly… my family, my grandparents, my cousins (my brother and sister, rather) seem to make my life worth living. mushy? … go figure. haha. yeah, i’m mushy, pretty emotional. i cried like a baby at my dorm banquet last year, i cry at the movies – especially hindi ones…i cry when something means something to me, and affects me in a profound way. anyway…to obvious things, i love photography, i love long talks and catching up, i love learning about my culture, and learning about other cultures and applying that diversity to my life, i love the beach, i love shopping (ever the girly-girl), i love organizing stuff (nerd…much), i love learning new things, i love clubbing (who’d have thought, huh? =p) i love traveling, i love writing, and i love poetry. i love being able to put my mind to something and achieving it…i love the feeling of changing someone’s life for the better, and i love changing myself for the better. thank you guys for helping me become a better person and making a difference in my life. i <3 you all!


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