i don’t blabber too much. i don’t. i’m more the listening type. but it’s only the 10th of 2008, and so much has happened, it’s hard to keep my mouth shut. no, not in the gossip way, but omg-this-is-so-exciting-i-need-to-tell-someone-before-i-burst-way. really….no words.
amidst all the clutter (emotionally/mentally speaking), my heart’s aflutter. haha. so tell me a little something... tell me how something so unexpected can bring you so much happiness in life – even if you know you’re doing the wrong thing. the wrong thing just happens to feel right. no, not just at that moment. i’m still kind of speechless. if you told me this would have happened a few months ago, i would’ve scoffed and wouldn’t have really given much thought to you, but somehow, for some reason … there’s just something about you. and to think you weren’t even expected! alas, it just wasn’t meant to be, but the fact that i’m okay giving this up, the fact that i don’t feel half as bad doing what i did … something that went against everything i stood for, something that i never thought i saw myself doing … well, you’d think i feel horrible. one of my fellow staff members walked up to me today and said, “vid, have you been getting rest? you look so incredibly happy!” … considering i got three hours of sleep the night before (ironically)…well, just goes to show. i’ve been walking around grinning like an idiot for no apparent reason, and even though i know that all this, whatever all this may be might not happen, i’m 100% okay with it. because somewhere, deep down inside, i know you’ll be there. you just seem like you would be. and that’s what means the most to me. a permanent friendship, strings/no-strings attached … entwined in all the memories – the good, the bad, the ugly … well, it just goes to show … this blabber stage wont be ending anytime soon =)
*hug*
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